I'm Sad

These couple of week, everything bad was happened to me. Firstly, my ex-manager not accept me as a permanent staff at Trilevel Sdn Bhd. She not observe me same like other people. My manager is Malay lady. I don’t know why she not observes me. If the main reason is my performance, I am not agreeing. Because most of the task, I can complete. Although, certain task I’ve finalized after the deadline, but the result is still excellent.
What happened if you have somebody that you’re believed, and respect suddenly changing? She talks to other people, that she not allows me to see, and visit her. Why???I really not understand why she does, and why she said like that. Tell me what happen, my mistake etc???This people is my sister in law…and I’m consider as a my family. But, why she does it to me.
Lose the job, mean you will not able earn more or get salary. I need money to survive, to pay everything (phone bill, hostel payment etc). So start last day, I’ve send resume to several company to apply any position as programmer. God, please help me, and I’m really hope that all my wish will come true…amen